, 10 min read
Male sexuality. I'm going to do a therapy session, where I am going to attempt to get every one of my thoughts, or a lot of them, out onto the page metaphorically. Childhood I never know where to begin, so I'm going to begin at the very beginning. Child me, basically, as background. Child me loved…
, 7 min read
I feel it most when I go to a coffee shop or driving late at night while listening to my favorite music. I feel it when I go on a hike, explore a new place, watch a sunset, go on a road trip, or when I’m feeling high from life: that longing for you. Every day when I go out, I have a simple…
, 12 min read
I'm going to record another video on how stupid dating is, and how much I hate it. How I'm not going to ever do it again. I'm so frustrated. Stupid YouTube videos I'm just like brooding over it right now. I'm at a Rover house and I'm just thinking about how well I was listening to a lot of YouTube…
, 11 min read
Nice. Pretty good. All right. Okay. [Music] Said I went up like this much, but I was going. I went forwards and then backwards, and when I went backwards, my legs... Oh yeah, the skate park to ourselves. The last two years felt like an entire lifetime. California, you gave me the greatest adventure…
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I'm a bit calmer now because I already told the whole story, but I was accidentally recording through my headphones and it made the sound quality really bad. So I have to retell the story. I will try to say it a little more concisely. Handome guy at a coffee shop I was at a coffee shop just now,…
, 3 min read
Here's a thought I recently had that I want to record. I've been thinking about it today as well. But for the longest time, for many years, during my personal growth journey, I've been trying to force myself to be super outgoing and like, smiley and bubbly and extra. Because this was the connection…
, 12 min read
I was just rollerblading, and I was thinking about insecurity and insecure people and how I want to record a whole video on that. And actually, I’ve wanted to for the last many years, ever since I started the channel, because some of the things that I’m most passionate about, that I like to…
, 11 min read
Welcome to my dead channel. It should be obvious that I kind of took a break from YouTube. Since I took a couple of months off, the algorithm is punishing me, so my videos will not be successful for maybe years. That was an accident. I took a break from YouTube because it was causing extreme…
, 9 min read
I was 21 when I recorded a pretty popular video called “I Have No Friends.” I basically just talked about my upbringing and struggling with loneliness my whole life. And at the time of recording, I didn’t have any of the answers. I didn’t know why I had no idea why I couldn’t make…
, 8 min read
What am I most afraid of? It's a great question. The obvious answer is death. I'm most afraid of death. I'm very aware of the passage of time. I'm not going to be young forever, so I wanted to record what my life looks like right now. This is me at 23. This is my face right now, on a good day. This…
, 6 min read
I was sitting at my favorite coffee shop, trying and failing to be productive. I had just gotten off the phone with my sister, and I wanted to write a short story, but nothing was coming out on the page. The day, until that point, had been a struggle. I was supposed to meet a friend at this coffee…
, 15 min read
Our human brain is so dumb! We assume that because these five guys were bad, it means four billion men are bad. No brain! Let’s not form an entire opinion on four billion people based on our childhood experience. Male audience and hatress for men Considering that my audience is oftentimes 90%…
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Out of 7.6 billion people on the planet, and they all think that they're right, what are the chances that you're right? This is what I've been thinking about tonight, and for me, it's such, such a fascinating thought. For me, it makes me very excited to think about. And that is, I've been thinking…
, 8 min read
Hello, everybody! Welcome to my first "Night Thoughts" video/podcast thing, uh, where you'll only be hearing the sounds of my voice, and maybe my footsteps, and maybe pick up a little bit of the night. So, this idea came to me because almost every single night I go for a walk, and all I…
, 12 min read
Okay, so I've been shamelessly checking my subscriber count ever since I got to about 98. I've been really keeping tabs on it, waiting for it to break 100. And the other day, I saw that it did break 100 subscribers, and I'm very happy about that. It's a huge compliment to me. It's actually very…
, 4 min read
I wanted to share some things that have happened to me since turning 21, and I think these things are pretty universal, so I think fellow young people might get something out of it. 1. Slow-down Twenty-one, for me, was the year when I finally decided I wanted time to slow down. It's a funny switch…
, 22 min read
1. I've read through my journals when I was about 18 years old. I really hated myself, and when I was younger. I would just tell myself, "Don't be so hard on yourself because you're not as bad as you think you are." What I wrote when I was in high school was insane. I was just so full…
, 10 min read
I'm 21 years old and I have no friends, and I'm just gonna go into why that is. Tonight I'm extra lonely, just out and about by myself as always, and I'm just gonna make a video about why I have no friends and I'm gonna start from the very beginning. So once upon a time when I was born 21 years…