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Our brain #1 Something that never ceases to amaze me is the fact that we are all born with brains, that we can spend the rest of our lives getting to know. We’re born with a brain that we don’t know or understand, so we have to put in the work to become self-aware and get to know ourselves and…
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I just read a comment on my “no friends” video that said, “I was 20 when I first saw this, and now I’m 23 and still have no friends, so all the more reason to give up.” And I want to address that quickly. I just felt a burst of passion. I want to share some things that I learned on my…
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One of life's cruelest twists. My brother's funeral It was my brother's burial and funeral, and the day was so much harder than it had to be, because my family is not a safe place. But the brother, who died, was a good brother. He was my closest sibling for most of childhood, and he was always a…
, 30 min read
YouTube viewers I'm going to tell you a little bit more about me because, even though I've been on YouTube for something like five or six years, maybe five, I am so frustrated with how videos are very one-dimensional. I've thought about it a lot the last few months as I've noticed most of my…
, 29 min read
I just got finished rollerblading. Well, I’m actually not finished. I’m taking a break. I need to work through some things. I’m not sure if I’ll work through anything, but I do want to record the struggle. I have so many thoughts. So the first thing is, yes, I think about men a lot. I do.…
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This is my first official letter. A thought I can't get out of my head is, that you're somewhere in the world right now. Our relationship hasn't begun, and we don't know each other, but we will, at some point, be the most significant person in each other's lives. I wonder where you are right now:…
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This necklace, it's Pisces. Why do people always go like this? Does it actually help with the focus? Is it for focus or is it for the lighting? I don't know why people do that. So I'm getting over some sickness. I rarely get sick. I feel like my immune system is pretty strong, but I don't know if…
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I was rollerblading the other day, listening to music, and I literally, at a certain point, was like, “I’m ready, Universe. I’m ready. Send me men! Abundance of men. Like, I’m trying to think in abundance and, like, if I law of attraction men, tell the universe I’m ready, and I…
, 20 min read
So, it's an absolutely beautiful day out. It's blue sky, and I wanted to record a couple of things. Basically, this is me on a bad day. And yeah, I look all dressed up and stuff, and that's because it was one of my friends' bridal showers. This is me recording a day where I got very triggered. It…
, 21 min read
It is February 12th, 2024. This is what happens when I try to record a video. Hey, how’s it going? Today is February 12th, 2024. I am 25 years old. This is me. This is my face on a good day. This is me with no makeup. I’ve been going makeup-free a little more often this year. These are my eyes…
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Caveats So I actually posted this first part of the video already and from the comments that I'm getting, I think I need to address some things because I think that I was a little careless to just post my unfiltered thoughts without giving some caveats. I never know how to say that word—caveats.…
, 10 min read
Male sexuality. I'm going to do a therapy session, where I am going to attempt to get every one of my thoughts, or a lot of them, out onto the page metaphorically. Childhood I never know where to begin, so I'm going to begin at the very beginning. Child me, basically, as background. Child me loved…
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I feel it most when I go to a coffee shop or driving late at night while listening to my favorite music. I feel it when I go on a hike, explore a new place, watch a sunset, go on a road trip, or when I’m feeling high from life: that longing for you. Every day when I go out, I have a simple…
, 12 min read
I'm going to record another video on how stupid dating is, and how much I hate it. How I'm not going to ever do it again. I'm so frustrated. Stupid YouTube videos I'm just like brooding over it right now. I'm at a Rover house and I'm just thinking about how well I was listening to a lot of YouTube…
, 12 min read
I'm a bit calmer now because I already told the whole story, but I was accidentally recording through my headphones and it made the sound quality really bad. So I have to retell the story. I will try to say it a little more concisely. Handome guy at a coffee shop I was at a coffee shop just now,…
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Here's a thought I recently had that I want to record. I've been thinking about it today as well. But for the longest time, for many years, during my personal growth journey, I've been trying to force myself to be super outgoing and like, smiley and bubbly and extra. Because this was the connection…
, 12 min read
I was just rollerblading, and I was thinking about insecurity and insecure people and how I want to record a whole video on that. And actually, I’ve wanted to for the last many years, ever since I started the channel, because some of the things that I’m most passionate about, that I like to…
, 11 min read
Welcome to my dead channel. It should be obvious that I kind of took a break from YouTube. Since I took a couple of months off, the algorithm is punishing me, so my videos will not be successful for maybe years. That was an accident. I took a break from YouTube because it was causing extreme…
, 9 min read
I was 21 when I recorded a pretty popular video called “I Have No Friends.” I basically just talked about my upbringing and struggling with loneliness my whole life. And at the time of recording, I didn’t have any of the answers. I didn’t know why I had no idea why I couldn’t make…